Need Some Sleep (Lyrics)

I just lay in bed, think of what I should of done, said or if I proved it something that it would have been better, different in my situation instead of plagued with destination, procrastination, constant waiting, nothings changing, only lies they tell me circulation and so they so blatant, it’s been like this my whole life I close my eyes and think twice, if I really want to end it all tonight, I’m too close to give up my fight, I’m disappointed and I know it’s not right, I did my best everyday but it never was enough and I know there’s never no trust and theirs never no love, it always was lust a second for a lifetime does, any moment then it’s done all my nightmares from mistakes that always come be the first to have my story run, focused in the next direction and it’s my discretion to close my eyes and sleep forever hoping soon before then I can feel better. I’m drowning in the swimming pool, two swisher sweets and cognac and I don’t speak no more so they don’t know that, their aint no come back every night at 4:30 still awake with an empty mind, when every time that I realize, don’t want the thoughts too collide, and all the thoughts I feel inside I’m hoping that the memories die I’m still trying but I just can’t find and I’m wondering if I’m just wasting my time and I’m tired of writing all these unheard rhymes I’m stucc just feel like I’m dying, and I can always hear the doves crying In my dreams I hear the voice calling, telling me to prove something stand up, still I just do nothing, wake up and time aint moved nothing blood in my eyes from internal I’m just bleeding my soul, my mind is out of control and nobody knows, assume that everything is all good but it’s not my position to tell you what you should, It’s all love, I just wish that you would. But I know where I’m going and I have to make it and I have to find a purpose, so it all won’t break me My soul still taking, feel my spirit is waiting it’s my fault for not taking this time, forsaken I curse my love, now the price I’m paying and accept the fate cause I’m plagued no patients In a rush for something, so I speak just statements drip the blood from my soul and it spilt pavements Thinking that my story done, well that I’m debating stay about mine, I’m always just blatant and I don’t know what you talking about cause I don’t live with no doubt, accept it what it is It’s my choice so I’m living now and its over before I get another moment, So I speak it how it is, and my peace for the love they don’t believe and I love still now and forever and my soul free But there’s nothing left to speak

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